With Waylon, Willie and the Boys

Heading out to Luckenbach today, which is where Tex and I had at one point thought we'd get married. Perhaps it's that, perhaps it's the gloomy weather, perhaps just the fact that I'm getting tired (a person can only hold out so long), but I feel the sadness leaning in on me again today. I dread going back to the dark place of last week.... It's so oppressive, so consuming. I know that I have to go back there (the only way out is through, as they say), but I'm hesitant to really let it take over again. Not while there are still fun times to be had here with Dad and Kath, who keep me laughing, buy me beers, and adore everything about Austin that I always have loved. It's a bit of optimism and a bit of denial on my part, and maybe just delaying the inevitable. Well, here goes. I'll do my best.